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Raymond Koh, 17
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Thursday, November 1, 2012
RANT!
So i've actually been thinking about really letting out all these bottled out feelings and then i thought of my blog. So dead and quiet and no one ever comes here anymore. Coincidentally someone also told me to type it all out here, so here i am!Seriously, the army is really pushing it too far this time around. Give us off, then i need to book in to camp almost every alternate day just to do some MINOR ARMSKOTE SHIT?! Fuck, i burn my off day just to stay in camp for 5 hours to do some 'check' or 'transfer' and don't even get thanks or repayment. FUCK YOU. I mean come on, i'm already helping you do a double appointment, and when every other commander is enjoying their off, i come back to help ever so often, and not get any appreciation. Wow, i totally enjoy it. My ass. So much for 'GO ENJOY YOUR OFF'. Fucking double my pay now BITCH! I've been tarhaning this shit for the past 10months already, and it is really building up. 4 more months to ord, but so what? More shit is gonna pile up. You think my life very easy ah? Ccb i can't wait to ord and gtfo of the armskote. And you better not put me back as armskote spec during reservist!
On another note, i don't really know who to confide in anymore. This girl. The one that has been troubling my heart for the past ohsomany years. Not gonna put her name here but those who know me well should know this particular girl. First time, i said i'd get over her, never did. Second time, i said i'd get over her. I thought i did. I really thought so. Until she started talking to me again. Fuck. I doubt you'll be reading this, but here's to you. I know we said we'll remain as friends, and i'm really trying very hard. But the thing is, i just can't get you outta my head. I've already tried to move on and get to know new girls, but i can't. I've already said before that you already hold that special place in my heart, where no other girl can replace. You really don't know how painful it is for me to put on a cool front and watch you from afar. So you tweet about missing your ex, how painful it is, and how he doesn't give a fuck. Have you ever thought once that the same might be happening to me? I'm really in a fucking dilemma now. Friends tell me 'go for it'. Friends tell me 'move on'. So what am i supposed to do? Follow my heart and go round and round and round again? I already have this uncanny feeling that you know and are purposely avoiding me. Fine. I get it, but it's not like i can just give up my feelings so easily. I want you to know that I miss you, I really fucking miss you, your eyes, your smile, your laughter, your everything. But i guess the same can't be said for you. You're probably busy missing grayson or hanging out with your numerous guy friends to even think about me. I suppose I'll just put my feelings aside as best as i can and watch over you as a friend or brother. Probably a healthier choice for our relationship. Fuck. My. Life.
Now that I think about it, please please please don't happen to come in here and read this :x